Saturday, March 16, 2019

Goodnight, Angel

Lulabelle: 3/15/05 - 3/16/19
Today—until God only knows when—is going to be tough. Lula has blessed my life with her love for and attachment to me ever since she was weaned from her Pug mom. I still remember the day I brought her home fourteen years ago... how small, delicate, and adorable she was. I had purposely chosen the so-called "runt" of the litter and, indeed, she could fit in the palm of one hand :-) That said, and as any human mommy of a runt will tell you, she also grew to be the feistiest of the bunch! 

Thank you, Lula, for fourteen years of unwavering love. I already miss you so incredibly much, baby girl. We'll be together again one day soon, but until that reunion comes I'll be here missing and remembering your beautiful, spunky, loving soul. I love you, angel baby. Rest in Peace. 

—Mommy

Sunday, February 24, 2019

I’m Sorry

I will never, ever put the cart before the horse again. As much as I wanted to finish HG for a Feb release, I simply couldn’t stay well enough—or cognitively focus enough—to make that desire become reality. I know I’ve done this in the past before, but I won’t do it to you again. I always mean well & have good intentions, but I’ve now learned it’s best to keep my mouth shut. 

I’m sorry everyone. I sincerely am. Every time my health takes a step forward, I swear it then leaps 2 gigantic steps back. I’ll keep you apprised of the situation as there are updates to give. 

Tina/Jaid

Monday, January 7, 2019

January 2019 Update

Happy New Year!

First, what hasn't changed:

  1. I still detest Traitor Trump & Complicit Pence... or, as I prefer to call them, Moron Man & Church Lady 😏
  2. The wall is still facepalm stupid.
  3. Shitty health.
  4. No medical insurance.

Now, what has changed:

  1. I recently became ill to the point of having to be hospitalized. Cleveland Clinic was truly wonderful to me; I can't thank them enough for all they did during my week long stay—and all that they continue to do without financial compensation since my release. They have renewed my hope that, at heart, Americans are still decent and generous people. Some more so than others, but I digress...
  2. I had a couple tweaks done to my meds and have been feeling slightly better physically. (I've only been discharged for a couple of days so hopefully that will continue to improve.) Psychologically, one new med was added and it has helped quickly and noticeably 😊Long-term psych meds usually don't work on me this fast, but I began feeling relief within a day of starting them so *fingers crossed* that trend will continue! The all-encompassing depression I've been lost in magically (or scientifically) lifted; the suicidal ideation—gone. Even my baseline for anxiety has tempered, releasing me from constant, crippling, jittery nervousness. In essence, I feel like my entire being has taken a big sigh of relief 😀
  3. I've been writing again. I don't want to jinx myself, but I have nearly completed Hunter's Game! I am also working on No Way Out: Dari so stay tuned for the next update :-)

I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday season and here's to a blessed 2019. 

Cheers,
Tina/Jaid